June 11, 2025
I got in my car after work and quietly sat there for a minute … then I turned it on plugged in my phone and put on the song ‘Staring At The Sun’ by TV On The Radio .
I had I weird day , I went into work like a one woman wreaking crew . In the first five minutes of being there I tripped and spilled 3 full buckets of ice all over the floor , scraped my knee and was bleeding all down my leg , opened a drawer which knocked over and broke bottles of wine (yes plural) , knocked over and flung across the bar a bottle of liquor I needed to bring to the back while everyone watched astonished.
i put the song on because I just wanted to feel you near . But hearing it made me start crying , angry crying and in frustration I started yelling that I missed you .
Again and again .
I don’t know if you can hear me but I don’t think I can live a whole rest of my life without you … I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this . I need you Timolee , I need my person back . I can’t do this & hate it so much . I miss you painfully .
TEXTS TO TIMOLEE IN THE EITHER 